New Beginnings

The Lord has been dealing with me for quite some time now on some things. I have been pushing them aside and going on with my own self. I haven't gotten very far. The past couple of weeks have been a little intense for me, but as I surrendered yesterday to His plans, despite my questions, my nerves, my fears, and my concerns, I began to feel a peace come over me.  

So I am handing this all over to the Lord and letting Him handle it. Letting Him use me as He wants.  I thought I knew the plan, but I was wrong. I was lost the last couple of years, but I have been found. Colossians 3:15 says "and let the peace of God rule in your hearts" ~ that is how I felt last night. At peace.

So, ..... here we go.

Follow along if you want to. If you don't, that is fine to!

For years I have said I was going to be a writer. Since High School actually. My friend and I wrote a book during study hall one year. We threw it away.

When I lived in Paducah, a dear friend gave me a pen and a beautiful journal inscribed with the words, "here, write your story." I never did.

My husband often asks me, "when are you going to write your book?" I shake my head and go in another room.

Last year another friend gave me a set of pens, pencils and a journal along with a note and a prayer. She said, "because the world needs more of your words."

I don't know about that. I used it for note taking in church.

Someone else suggested blogging. I thought about it. Often. Every time I thought I would start, I would see a post that someone had started a blog. Everyone blogs. I put it aside. I tell myself no one cares what I have to say.

Since my husband and I moved here a little over two years ago, I knew God had something in store for me. I didn't know what it was. He began speaking to me in new ways, giving me stories. I was busy and didn't write them down. I was angry and didn't want to. I stuffed it all inside. There is a lot in there, a lot that He is bringing out. Buckle up is all i can say.

As I get ready to post this, my first blog, I am shaking incredibly all over. I feel a little sick. I despise public speaking. But God. But God wants to use me, to use my life, to use my words, my abilities that He gave me to do something. To uplift someone. To help someone. To do some good. I don't know what the outcome will be, but He does. So, I leave this all to Him and say Your will be done Lord.  

Deborah